Upleveling is happening. Gulp.

Upleveling is happening. I’m transforming everything.

My body. My health. My business. My life.

It’s time, it’s past time, but upleveling is happening, despite the fact that I often move like a glacier.

Upleveling is happening. Gulp.

In the last few months upleveling has begun to happen for me in many ways.

  • Environment: I moved house and office (I work at home) in August, and everything about my working environment has changed and continues to change. I’m in month two of standing at my desk much more than I sit.
  • Health: The dance I do of taking better and better care of myself and my ongoing health projects invites me to do my upleveling best every single day.
  • My business: I finally pulled my head out of the denial sandpile and admitted to myself that what I was planning and doing for my spiritual, heart-centered business isn’t working. Hasn’t been working for too long.

My commitment now is to embrace upleveling and transform everything for the better.

A bit more about the business part.

There are some things that are working really really well. List growth, social media follows and connections, deep and deeper interactions with the people I’m meant to work with. But revenue is in a shambles, and it’s time to transform everything to a new way of being.

Just in case you’ve been going through anything like this, here are some of the things I noticed, and places where upleveling is needed.

  • The woman who was my ideal client when I rebranded three years ago is no longer the woman I’m meant to serve.
  • It’s time for me to speak more clearly about what makes me unique — my combination of sage wisdom and experience and mad branding, design, and coaching skills. Three years ago, my marketing stood out more than it does now. Now there are hundreds (thousands?) of people offering much of what I offer. I’m lost in a huge crowd.
  • What I’m planning to do is going to be challenging and rigorous. Raising the bar on my self-care will help me have the strength to meet the challenges.

Now, about that Gulp in the title and the image.

I read these words on Eleanor Beaton’s blog today:

You’re not just born once. Throughout your life you are continuously re-born. And each time you uplevel, you move through a dark and mysterious path to reach a new level of you. Darkness, confusion, uncertainty: this is the starting point for major growth and transformation.

I’m feeling confused.

What do I do first? What do I do second? What changes to make?

I’m feeling uncertain.

Am I too old? Too health-challenged? Is it too late?

And yes, the path does look a bit dark from today’s vantage point.

Murky, more like. I’m crystal clear on this: It’s time for me to manifest the changes and awarenesses that have taken root inside me about my work and how and whom I’m meant to serve.

I’m completely in the dark about how this manifestation will happen.

But I’m strapping in anyway.

My new Mastermind group begins this week, and this is what I keep hearing in my head:

Commencing countdown, engines on
Check ignition and may God’s love be with you

(Thank you, thank you, David Bowie.)

I’m sharing this with you because sharing my truth is what I do, and because I know some of my clients are moving through upleveling themselves.

Is any of this happening for you?

  • You feel the call to act and serve in alignment with your passion and purpose, but feel afraid, unprepared, and overwhelmed at the prospect of change.
  • You are facing what doesn’t work in your life and relationships and work/business and are ready to make changes.
  • You are ready to release what is holding you back and keeping you stuck.

Where are you upleveling?

I’d love to know; please let’s talk in the comments.

Posted on January 19th, 2016. Posted in these categories: biz dev, chutzpah, upleveling. 32 Comments

Sometimes Mercury retrograde can be merciless

Mercury retrograde (Merc Rx) is a big pain in my ass today

Don’t get me wrong; I rarely complain about a Mercury retrograde.

In fact I have learned to love these periods, and celebrate them as times to rethink, recalibrate, recharge, renew, revise…. You see the theme, right? Mercury retrograde invites you to quiet down the outer activity and do some of the inner work (think words that start with “re-“) that will make the next actions you choose to take manifest with more ease, be more productive, and lead to more abundant rewards.

Usually, anyway.

But not today.

Mercury retrograde
Today I had a few things that I had to get done.

I got up early to go get my car smog-checked. My car registration is due this week. I left an hour before a client appointment to get this done. This happened:

  • I called the place I had chosen on Yelp. They don’t do smog any more but kindly told me where I can go to get smogged.
  • I looked to make sure I had my registration renewal form. I looked in my purse, where it should be. No form. I tore my office apart three times. No form. I looked upstairs in my bedroom (where I would never bring something like this). No form. Looked everywhere in my office again! Called Motor Vehicles, and while on a 20-minute hold looked in my purse again. Found the form!
  • I mapped the location of the smog shop, and Google Maps took me to the wrong place. They directed me to S. 23rd Street. The shop is on 23rd Street. Either the address was wrong online or I typed it in wrong. Two U-turns at long lights.
  • Goddess smiled, smog took eight minutes so I got to the client meeting in time.
  • Client didn’t show up.
  • Decided to grill some veggies before next client appointment. Ran out of propane mid-grilling. Changed out the tank.
  • Client was late for the call.

The lesson and the blessing.

The blessing:

I was on time (barely!) for everything. I had yummy grilled sweet potatoes to eat. I got everything done and will get my registration payment to Motor Vehicles on time.

Here’s the lesson, which I learned long ago:

I was on time because I leave more room than I need in my schedule for everything, and I do that all the time, not just when Mercury retrograde is in da house. In case I ever begin to think I’m leaving too much of a “shoulder” between events in my calendar, I will remember today, and keep doing what I do. This practice saved my ass today, has saved my ass many times in the past, and is a keeper.

Take that, Mercury retrograde!

How do you ensure that snafus (Mercury retrograde–related or not) don’t mess you up? What practices allow for your ease when shit happens? I’d love to know. Please share with me in the comments.

Posted on January 12th, 2016. Posted in these categories: Mercury retrograde. 25 Comments

Farewell 2015, an obituary

I’m writing an obituary to 2015 today.

Farewell 2015.

I’m inspired by Melanie Bates’s article, and especially by this line describing the crap year she had had: “You know how it goes. Everyone is always awesome in an obituary!”
Like Melanie, this one goes out to anyone who had a rough 2015, whether or not you overcame or are still in the dance.

Just thinking that I can see 2015 as awesome is a powerful shift to make.

A shift away from seeing the past year as another failure. A failure to earn enough — again. A failure to recover from a chronic illness — again. A failure to find the love of my life, at least one who thinks the same about me at the same time — again.

Farewell 2015Farewell 2015, a remembrance

Your twelve-month life was, as usual, all over the map. During our time together you brought me moments of peace and joy, moments of fasten-seatbelts jolts and surprises, discouragement, encouragement, and many points in between.

Here are the lights, high and low. They’re all noteworthy, and I list them in order of — I guess in the order of the impact made on my tender heart and seeking spirit:

  • The health front was still rough and rugged. Not content with conditions as they were, you decided you just had to have a big moment in April with a recurrence of appendicitis and a three-day hospital stay. The very good news: No surgery, I survived, things subsided back to baseline. Again, not enough for you because you decided you hadda have your year-end swan song. Seriously? Since November: flu, laryngitis, and then pneumonia. Enough already! Dayenu!
  • You inspired me to clean up my diet even more. I gave what’s called the Autoimmune Paleo (AIP) protocol a six-month try. Want some more mindfulness around eating? Try AIP for a while.
  • You opened up a door in my spirit that I thought was forever closed — the door to Judaism, the spiritual path into which I was born. And what a surprise that was and has been! A full year has gone by and I’m diving deeper and deeper into mystical and sacred Jewish practice and lore.
  • You gifted me with a new community of people I really like and love and with new and hugely fun ways to serve. That’s the big gift, for me, of joining a synagogue, one with as vibrant, passionate, and justice-minded a community as the one to which I was led.
  • You gave me the opening to have a week on Kauai, which was a week of heaven. Thank you.
  • You decided that another year of low revenues from my business was just the ticket! Thanks but no thanks. Not only am I most fervently saying Farewell 2015 to this financial snapshot, but I’m saying Farewell to the mindset I’ve worn like a box of rocks on my shoulders for the last couple of years. Each and every one of those boulders — consider yourself shrugged off, and I’m diving into the work I’m called to do to make 2016 a beautifully prosperous year.
  • You wove the threads between me and my daughter even more snugly, tighter, and close so that she and I could deepen and broaden our loving relationship. For which I am ridiculously and giddily grateful. Considering the tense and fraught and scary years of her first two decades, this is a big fat miracle.
  • You put some new and refreshing and interesting people in my path, some for the first time, some for a return visit. I am so glad that I’ve learned how to walk with my heart forward, my eyes up, and my hands open — all so I can see what’s in front of me. I am glad that I have learned to stop and connect, even when it’s risky. And I am very glad to see whom I am privileged to encounter, to know, and to help.

Farewell 2015

Thank you for everything you have taught me. As you hand me off now to young 2016, I go with an undaunted heart, a strong body, curiosity, passion, and the strongest sense of mission I’ve ever had.

How have you said Farewell 2015?

What have you seen? Learned? Released? What are you keeping with you and what’s gotta go? Let’s talk in the comments.

Posted on January 5th, 2016. Posted in these categories: remembrance. 26 Comments

What do you know you will do when you know you #WillNotFail?

There were some great questions in Quest 2016.

I think this one is my favorite: How would you do business as unusual if you knew you #WillNotFail?

These are the big-ass visions and dreams that came up for me when I participated in Quest 2016.

I mean, look at this question! —

How would you do business as unusual in 2016 if you knew — no matter what you chose — you would not fail?

#WillNotFail

Sit with this question for a minute. Stop reading the article, look at the question again, and suck it into your heart, your gut, every cell. Ask yourself the question.

Huge, huh? Huge! If you’re buzzing already with juicy, crazy ideas, go ahead and capture them — write them down, sing them into your phone and record them, type them into a note. It’s okay; come back and read more later. Don’t let these messages from the Divine get away!

Okay, you’re back, good!

Here’s what happened for me:

When I sat with that question up there, I realized that one of the first things I would do is share my wild almost-too-big-to-contemplate goals and ask for your help and support. Asking for support is a miraculous thing and so critical for changemakers and wisdompreneurs tio remember: We don’t have to do the work we do alone. I get to share my stuff with you, even the scary bits and ask for your recognition, empathy, comments, love, and support. And I get to support you in your journey. We are a circle and the more we connect, support, and love each other, the more we grow and thrive. ‪#‎WillNotFail‬

So here I go… I’m sharing my goals here, not just for me and the Universe to hear, but also for you, my community, to help me achieve them.

And maybe I can help you achieve yours too. (More about that, and the Conscious Collaboration community later.)

In 2016…

  • I will work one-to-one coaching differently, so that my coaching — Unmask Your Brand and Shine Your Light — would transform branding (personal and business) in a clear, juicy, audacious, and surprising way for twelve women, and for four of these women we’ll go on to do the next iteration of their branding, website, and social media marketing strategy. (BTW, if this is you or someone you know, may I suggest that you reach out to me asap? I have a feeling these spaces are going to go quicker than I thought this year!)
  • I will write, design, complete, and successfully sell my first info product that isn’t a freebie. (Have I told you about this? “Putting on your big girl panties and having a grown-up relationship with money and your finances” is the working title. I’ve been studying this, compiling information, and finding through practice what really works for over 25 years. I’ve already started writing and can’t wait to share this with you. If you like the sound of it, leave a comment to send me a Yay! for encouragement.)
  • I will continue to promote, refine, and promote some more my premium Deep Dive program and serve women who crave release, refreshment, rejuvenation, and recommitment. And I would work with eight or ten amazing women in the Deep Dive during the year.
  • I will work less and earn twice as much as I need to meet routine expenses.
  • I will have the bandwidth (time and money) to go deeper into my healing journey so that I will be vibrantly healthy!
  • I will take the month of May or October and travel!

Oh it feels good to be so daring and to share my heart with you!

So, what are your goals for 2016?

And do you have the courage to share them with us?

Of course you can leave a comment, I love comments! But…If you want to get even more support, I’m inviting you to my Conscious Collaboration Facebook Group. That’s where we can really get in conversation with each other. Check Conscious Collaboration out; it’s free and fabulous!

One of the things that holds us back from sharing our goals out loud is the fear that we will fail, or that things won’t turn out the way we hoped or planned. But the downside of not sharing them? You miss out on all the support and opportunity that sharing your goals in community can bring.

So, if you’re feeling uncertain about sharing, perhaps this will help — to know this truth that I’m still unwrapping:  I feel my visions and goals — as they have revealed themselves to me at this point —  very strongly, but I also feel that this is just a beginning, and that, like everything else in my life, they may grow and or change over time.

It’s okay if your goals change too. But don’t let that stop you from claiming them now. Try these four steps:

2015 Completion, Release, Intention#1 Complete and release 2015.

Last chance to grab the workbook here.

#2 Tune into your goals, dreams, and intentions:

Start from how you want to feel, start from that place that you #WillNotFail.

If you are creating goals and intentions to give you something — like more money or more security or peace or success — start by tuning into this #WillNotFail feeling directly in your heart.

And then discover your goals and share them bravely.

Power tip: If you want to affirm that you will not fail, turn the statement into one that’s in the positive present-tense. The universe pays close attention to your action words: Affirm #IEasilySucceed. Affirm #IManifestMyIntentions. Affirm your living breathing beautiful dreams, goals and intentions in the here and in the now.

#3 Be brave and share your goals, dreams, and intentions.

Jump into the Conscious Collaboration Facebook Group and join the supportive loving conversations. Listen for what you need and give generously of your heart and your kickass smarts. There are themed threads, and of course you can always post a request for support to the wall.

#4 Ask for help.

Take the time to think about each goal and how we can support you. Include these in your Conscious Collaboration posts (or in a comment below) where you can. Be specific. Example? My book — I asked you to leave a comment and send me encouragement. It’s a discrete, actionable step you can do.

Sending love and huge New Year’s blessings.

Posted on December 29th, 2015. Posted in these categories: goals. 11 Comments

Your theme for 2016 — are you open to receive?

Sometimes the theme or focus for the year ahead comes from unexpected places or prompts —  Are you open to receive?

I decided early on as we ramped up to the Solstice that I would not choose a theme or focus for 2016.

I’ve done this before, and each time I did I found myself forgetting my theme / focus by the time February rolled around. So no, I wasn’t going to do this divination this year. Instead I did my Completion, Release, and Intention Workbook that I sent out to all my subscribers (still time! — you can get yours here if you haven’t already) and I settled into healing from the flu and then from laryngitis which turned into pneumonia.

But sometimes life and the Divine have other ideas.

Some pretty unexpected threads wove together creating the tapestry of backstory for my journey of discovery and divination. Here’s what happened:

The first thread in the tapestry:

One of the members of my healing team, a brilliant woo woo md, told me to start working on my power chakra. The context was my chronic digestive problems and the point was, I think, to stand sovereign in my own power around my health. I revisited my favorite chakras meditation, giving extra time and attention to the power chakra.

The next thread:

I read Catherine Buck Clarenbach’s post, in which she asked these questions, inviting her readers and me to ponder and answer any time from three days before the Solstice to the upcoming Full Moon:

  • What happens when you listen intently for your own wisdom?
  • If you practice divination, what does it have to say to you at this time?
  • As we pass the Solstice, what are the powers, the strengths you can imagine taking up again? What have you laid down in the past, what has rested, that now can be renewed?
  • Or what are new powers, powers of age or circumstance, you didn’t have before, that you hear turning over in the close and holy darkness of Earth?

Catherine’s questions lingered with me…. I didn’t come up with any answers, but the questions themselves were resonant.

And then this final thread wove itself into the tapestry:

I got sick again, this time with pneumonia, and a very lovely friend suggested we come up with questions around which we could each do some art. When she made her suggestion, I came up with my own version of Solstice/Full Moon questions, riffing on Catherine’s prompts I had read a few days before:

  • As we move into and through solstice, what is lighting up your heart? Or…
  • What strength and power is building in you to be expressed with the return of the light?

Which brings us to now. Above you can see the image I created.

Oh wait, even the image has a backstory.

The piece of paper I pulled out had some notes written years ago when I was in deep despair having finally realized that the $22,000 I had invested with yes-too-good-to-be-true scammers was gone gone gone never to return. The bit on the bottom is a third-person suicidal poem, and I guess that face is supposed to be my imagined corpse. I was going to turn the page over to paint on a clean white sheet, but felt driven to paint right over that deep despair.

The piece turned out to be a representation of my 2nd, 3rd, and 4th chakras:

  • passion and health
  • power
  • love

I used colors that represent those chakras to me and painted hearts and flames.

And then I realized I had come up with my theme for 2016 (bypassing my mind and plans entirely). Passion, power, and love.

What have you been discerning without even trying? What is coming to you?

If nothing yet, spend some quiet time during the rest of this week — I’m guessing this invitation will stay wide open until at least Sunday (two days after the Full Moon) — and just ask.

Ask with art supplies. Ask with a candle. Ask with your camera. Just ask. You might be as surprised as I was to find that your theme and focus are already in your heart and ready for you to open to them.

Let me know what arises in your heart. A theme for the year? A theme for simply this turning of the wheel? I’d love to know; talk to me in the comments. Solstice blessings.

Posted on December 22nd, 2015. Posted in these categories: love, receive. 4 Comments

The gifts in the silence

I’m in the silence today. I have laryngitis.

It’s only been two days, but when you aren’t speaking, it seems like time slows down.

Feels like I’ve been in silence for a week.

silence

I took a pad and pen with me to my hairdresser, to the clothes shop, to the taco restaurant — and everywhere I went I wrote down my questions. Or made feeble gestures. (I so wish I knew how to sign!)

There is a bit of frustration all around — mine being that I can’t write quickly enough or neatly enough — but everyone was very willing to help. Here’s a weird bit: Almost everyone assumed I was deaf. Tapped me on the shoulder to get my attention. Added gestures to what they said. Wrote down their words. And since I was/am being as compliant as I can be in this healing mode, I couldn’t tell them anything. Interesting.

There are gifts in the silence. What I’ve noticed so far:

  • When there’s less coming out of your mouth, you become more attuned to the internal conversation. Thoughts. Feelings. Love. Making present and authentic connections in the silence is a powerful thing. Try it. Even if you don’t have a physical reason to do so.
  • Time really does appear to slow down and open up space for meditation and introspection. There’s more space to breathe. To connect. To be in this now moment. And the next. Which is good, because it gives me more time to gargle. And sip a mixture of cider/kombucha vinegar and my amazing bronchial tea with honey, cayenne, and lemon.
  • You are more connected to you in the silence — which is a great opportunity for self-care. What I notice is that I notice more. My fatigue. Exactly how my throat feels. What I might do to better care for myself — cancel client calls and business networking events for starters.

Chakras affirmations for the holiday season.Speaking of meditation, I’m answering the call — here’s a printable chakras meditation.

When some of you said you were going to print out the chakras meditation from last week’s blog, I realized that the quality of the image was not going to make anyone happy.

So I made a beautiful version that will print perfectly. Click here or on the image on the left and get your download.

I was even going to record the instructions for you, but laryngitis. So, love, go back to the previous post and use the written instructions, or record them in your own voice (the best way I know), leaving ample time for five or so breaths between each step.

365 Ways To Connect With Your SoulOne more joy to add — I’m a best-selling author!

I am so honored to be among the 200 authors in this amazing book — 365 Ways To Connect With Your Soul.

If you are interested in discovering fun, new, profound, and lovely ways to deepen your connection to the divine, then I think you too will love this brand-new book. It contains one tip for each day of the year from over 200 authors, including Arielle Ford, Peggy McColl, Christy Whitman…and me!

I’m sending this book as a gift to each of my clients. It would make a great gift for your loved ones and of course for yourself!

Here’s the link to order the book from Amazon. Or simply click on the picture of the book cover.

I’d love to know your thoughts.

About silence. About the upcoming Solstice and the turning of the wheel. About the chakras work — I’ve been doing it and it’s amazing!

Let me know what’s in your heart in the comments. Blessed be.

Posted on December 15th, 2015. Posted in these categories: chakras, gifts, silence. 26 Comments

What needs a little love and attention? Start with your chakras.

It’s the holidays, yo. Things get stressful.

I went to see one of my healers today and was prescribed some self-love and empowerment. She advised me to tend to my chakras, especially the third one (working from the bottom) so that I could feed and nurture my own personal power, and gently yet firmly welcome a more powerful version of myself in this Solstice season.

There are three really good things about this idea:

  • I’m reminded just how much focused meditation can improve my health. Yes, I’ve used this tool before, and yet I forget! I’ve done work with the chakras before and it feels just right to circle back to them again.
  • I’ve decided to be in my office very little the last two weeks of the month, which opens up space for internal healing (and more fun!).
  • This time of year, as I approach the Solstice, I can really feel the old wounds in my tender heart; how nice to be willing to reclaim my own power by being a force for love, ease, and healing inside and out.

Chakra affirmations for the holidays

Want to join me opening up chakras? It’s easy.

If you’re noticing any tenderness in your own self — any facets of your beautiful heart and psyche that are calling for some TLC — why not join me in this daily practice?

Chakra meditation. Start with the Root chakra and work your way up.

  • Get comfortable in your favorite meditation position. Do what works for you. Sit on a cushion or a chair. Lie down. If you can have your feet flat on the floor and your spine straight, allowing the energy to flow through you.
  • For each chakra, there are three steps. First step: take a few breaths imagining you are inhaling that chakra’s colors. Inhale the bright color you see in the image, and as you exhale imagine you are sending that color into the universe through the body part you’re working. Three to five breaths could work for this, although if you’re working a particular theme (like I am with empowerment), spend more time with that chakra and its color.
  • Second step: chant the chakra’s seed sound. (Each chakra has its own sound — some call it a seed syllable — and it’s right there under each picture. For the Root chakra, it’s Lam. And so on.) Inhale fully, and on a long, slow exhale let the sound vibrate in the chakra’s body part. Repeat the chanted sound five times for each chakra, and of course more times for those ones that are calling for special attention.
  • Third step: repeat the affirmation aloud three times. And now you’re ready to move on to the next chakra.

Other good stuff to do to support this working:

I’m looking at quotes about empowerment, because that’s how I roll — I respond well to visuals and to the lessons and blessings in others’ words. Take some time to support your sacred and sovereign work by finding the words that wrap you in purpose and ease. Let’s close with my favorite quote of the day:

“Cherish your solitude. Take trains by yourself to places you have never been. Sleep out alone under the stars. Learn how to drive a stick shift. Go so far away that you stop being afraid of not coming back. Say no when you don’t want to do something. Say yes if your instincts are strong, even if everyone around you disagrees. Decide whether you want to be liked or admired. Decide if fitting in is more important than finding out what you’re doing here. Believe in kissing.”  ― Eve Ensler

How did this land, dear one? I’d love to know what you think, what you find, what you learn. Talk to me in the comments. Blessed be!

Posted on December 8th, 2015. Posted in these categories: chakras, empowerment. 23 Comments