I’m off on a holiday retreat, a sacred month-long journey, and a writing break.
Propelled and inspired by the energy of the recent Cardinal Grand Cross and eclipse season, I am taking the crazy audacious step of an entire month away from work. I know I will be coming back spiritually recharged and ready for inspired action. Are you interested in getting help with your business, with defining and manifesting your passion, mission and purpose in everything you do? Are you feeling called to find out more about Astrology for Your Business? Send me an email, or fill out the form on the Share Your Magic page here on the website, and I will get back to you the last week in May.
By the magic of technology, I get to schedule these guest posts for you, one each week that I’m gone. Enjoy!
This is a guest post, by my friend Caroline Kirk. I am always inspired by and grateful for her wisdom. (Another overseas writer; I’ve left her spelling and punctuation untouched.)
Don’t allow all you’ve learned to become yet another stick to beat yourself with during times when it’s challenging to put those lessons in action.
I’ve been lost for a while. From loving what I was doing, what I was building, the connections I was making with amazing women all over the world, I suddenly, or so it seemed, lost belief in myself, in all I was creating.
who am I to be writing about spirituality, self love and owning our purpose when I am yet again back in a place of limited self belief, of fears & doubts? Who am I?
You’d think that after decades of learning about Divine connection, universal energy, how thoughts create our experiences and how we get to choose how we feel in each moment I’d know how to shut off that voice, to snap out of the feelings of doubt and despair when I start sinking into the old patterns of thinking and lose sight of the passion I feel about life, about writing, about making a difference in the lives of us women, about creating a business I love and believe in.
The thoughts circled….
- I should know better.
- I should just make an internal switch.
- I shouldn’t be back here yet again.
- I should just give up on all this because I’ll never ‘get there’.
- I should have it all sussed out by now.
- I shouldn’t be saying ‘I should’
I was drowning in a sea of should and shouldn’ts.
I realized I was using all that I had learned previously, all the wisdom I’d been blessed to encounter as an added stick to beat myself with.
Each day I’d set goals and each evening I’d feel a failure as yet again, nothing was achieved. I stopped setting the goals as I couldn’t bear adding insult to injury.
Underneath all this ego-fuelled turmoil ,I became aware of my inner knowing……my silent observer of all that is…..the part of me that has an unyielding acceptance of life, as it is in any moment, all unfolding perfectly.
Whispering without words… Accept. Embrace. Trust. Let it pass.
It was the lifeline I needed, no amount of striving was inspiring positive change.
I decided to
- accept this is how I feel; to stop forcing myself to feel different
- accept I don’t have to do anything
- trust ‘this too shall pass’
- honour myself in the process; to believe there was something deeper at work here
- Let go of the guilt that surrounded my current need to opt out of life as I knew it for a while.
- love myself regardless during this period of diminished creativity, of diminished motivation, of diminished self belief
- trust in Divine timing and know even if I never returned to writing or building my business, that all is still well
- give gratitude for all the life blessings I hadn’t been acknowledging while stuck in this negative cycle
Yes, this too shall pass and I love myself regardless of my perceived faults & failings.
“Some changes look negative on the surface but you will soon realize that space is being created in your life for something new to emerge.” Eckhart Tolle
Quite quickly after that, I realised I was beginning to feel better. I picked up a spiritual book again, I replied to some emails. I accepted an invitation to get out and about. I began to read the wise words from the many wonderful women I’ve come to know since I began this journey into writing & teaching about us amazing feminine creatures J, of self empowerment, spirituality and self love.
I began to feel like me again. Connected to Divine Source. Perfectly Imperfect.
I received an email from Sue reminding me of our agreement to swop blog posts. It was the push from the Universe that I needed. It felt daunting, it brought up the fears again but it was ok. I was ok. I can do this. (Thanks Sue xo)
We will sometimes lose our way. We will sometimes not feel as positive as we once did. We will have periods of self doubt and fears will arise. We will feel despair.
Over and over. Such is the ebb and flow of life.
The key is not to beat ourselves up for these natural aspects of living, of building a business, of putting ourselves out there, of being a woman, of being human.
The key to getting through these times of uncertainty and despair is acceptance; of self, of life.
Acceptance that life is always unfolding exactly as we need it to and we are always doing the very best we can in each moment. Even when it doesn’t feel as if we are. Especially when we feel we’re not.
Acceptance that sometimes we will feel on top of the world and at others as if that same world is crushing our very existence. And that “this too shall pass”
Acceptance that no matter what we decide or don’t, we are worthy of love, including and most especially, our own.
It is this love that will see us through life’s storms; that will move our perceived mountains and carry us on the winds of change to the new us… more weathered, more wise, more in touch with who we are.
Here to experience all the dips and highs of the rollercoaster that is Life.
You can download my two free eBooks here if it resonates; “Self Love Rocks” & “Lessons in Self Love” A collaboration of women’s stories around the world who are changing their world by finding their worth. With love from me to you. Namaste.
How do you gently love yourself through the storms? Please leave a comment and let me know how it is for you.
I’m Caroline Kirk, and I guide women towards self love, soul connection & freedom, to happy & healthy harmony of mind, body & spirit, which I believe provides a platform for deep inner growth, positive authentic living & the courage to pursue our greatest passions and way of being.
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