wow, the next to last day of the year.
I am grateful I am blessed I am blessed!
I am grateful to know myself and to know when I am acting and expressing stuff that doesn’t reflect my highest self, my core values. I left a message for my daughter today apologizing for my tantrum when she was late and lied to me about it. And for threatening her *if you ever lie to me again, our relationship is toast.* I cannot believe I said that. And how happy I am that I was able to call and leave a message taking it all back, saying that I will always always be present and available for our relationship no matter what and that I love her unconditionally. I don’t have to like being lied to; I also don’t have to punish her for it. I release and I let go; Rose’s guiding spirit, higher power is not named Sue. I know this! And lucky for both of us.
I am grateful for a weekend full of dancing. Three nights of swing dancing in a row; it has been a long while since I’ve done that. Carpooling, letting go of being in control about when we leave, getting to know more people. Some great dances, lots of fun. Live music—three bands!
I am grateful that the year-end filing is more than halfway done. Phew. So much paper.
I am grateful for gifts given. It was heartwarming to give Rose the picture of her in the magnolias (you can see it in the 12/20 entry).
I’m grateful for the time we spent together at the body world exhibit. Weird. Mind-expanding. Challenging. Beautiful.
I’m grateful to be complete with M. After three dates, it is clear to me that I am not available for relationship. I am available for fun and for some juicy sex energy with someone other than myself. I am ready!
I am so grateful to be feeling better today. Feel nearly back to normal. Hooray for health.
And for tears shed at services today, for listening to words of hope and transformation and love and being moved.
For service given at Nora’s PRG. Great energy!
I am grateful I am grateful I am grateful.
Blessed be.