Retreat into the darkness — let go and surrender to win

You might have heard about this upcoming Solar Eclipse.

I did, and I didn’t pay attention.

Now I want to watch it and can’t find any glasses to protect my eyes! Another opportunity to surrender.

Things rarely unfold like my imagination would like them to unfold. Does this happen to you too, or is just me? Deciding the Thursday before that I’d like to watch what I can of the eclipse, and then finding out that Amazon didn’t save a pair of NASA-approved glasses for me — one more example of what “surrender to win” is about.

I could choose to get upset about this, or I could let go and move on.

“All is well, provided the light returns and the eclipse does not become endless night….The reappearance of the light is the same as the survival of the soul.” — Victor Hugo

I finally started looking for eclipse-watching glasses today.

Of course there are none available! Such a surprise.

I wasn’t paying much attention to the upcoming eclipse. I know that I’m nowhere near Totality here in the north bay area of California. After all, I have a retreat to go to this weekend. I have things to do. I’m busy. Then my sister, who’s traveling in the Pacific Northwest this week, told me about planning to watch it, and I got bit by the bug. I may have to make a pinhole camera.

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I’ve been paying attention to awakening — as many of you have, my wise sisters and teachers.

Maybe that’s why I wasn’t thinking about the Eclipse. You know? Charlottesville.

  • Awakening to white privilege. Even though I come from a legacy of persecution (many of my direct ancestors and relatives perished in the holocaust, and before that, in pogroms), the color of my skin affords me privileges and I can no longer ignore this.
  • Awakening to my inner journey from well meaning liberal white woman to woke ally — and how I may really help.
  • Awakening to the importance of love, love, more love, and then getting off my ass and into action. Whatever the right action may be.

You might be wondering what surrender to win means.

In case you’ve been paying attention, you know that I’ve talked about this before (here’s one example). Taught to me by my beloved tai chi teacher, surrender to win goes hand-in-hand with the concept of investment in loss. When I let go of things going the way my dear mind would have them go, magic happens.

  • The magic of getting out of my own way.
  • The magic of pleasant surprises.
  • The magic of not having to be in charge.

The New Moon is going to line up with the Earth and the Sun and we will have darkness in the middle of the morning.

“…the return of the Sun after a total eclipse, the rising of the Sun in the morning after its troublesome absence at night were noted by people around the world; these phenomena spoke to our ancestors of the possibility of surviving death. Up there in the skies was also a metaphor of immortality.” — Carl Sagan

Total darkness for some. Partial darkness here. Powerful stuff. And I get to go on retreat this weekend to enter into my own darkness and see what there is to see.

“In order to understand the world, one has to turn away from it on occasion.” — Albert Camus

What a nice way to prepare for Monday’s astro doings. How are you welcoming this Dark Moon and the Eclipse? Let me know; let’s talk in the comments.

Photo credit: Big appreciation for NASA and NY Public Library for making images by Étienne Léopold Trouvelot available.

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  1. I too know that teaching: ‘invest in loss’ from my tai chi teacher, but not ‘surrender to win.’ To yield and go with the flow, whether it’s into darkness or into light, is so important. This solar eclipse will not be seen from New Zealand, but I’m sure we will feel it. I always love going into darkness. It’s a place of deep rest, stillness and often new understandings. Thank you for this post Sue, and may you find magic in surrender.

    • Juliet, that’s cool that you heard “invest in loss” too. I’m curious, wondering if we studied in the same lineage (Prof Cheng)?

      I love your closing blessing — there’s always magic in surrender, even if we can’t sense it, or feel it, or even know the promise of it, at the moment of surrender (and leading up to it)!

  2. For an event that is taking place after 99 years, I’m sure the television networks will cover it, Sue. It won’t be visible in India but I read that we will have one in 2034. Perhaps time to start planning a trip to India in the future?

  3. What a beautiful way to look at the eclipse – “… to go on retreat this weekend to enter into my own darkness and see what there is to see.” I think that’s better than getting involved in all the hype.

  4. Blessings, Sue!
    I hope you were able to luxuriate in the astral display Monday, even without glasses! – it was overcast-to-raining across most of 3 states here in the Midwest 🙁
    Magic in surrender – Yes!

    • Hey Karen, welcome! I was able to see nothing, as we had overcast skies. I walked around town with the last-minute gifted glasses in my pocket, watching my fellow citizens looking up at the grey sky, looking down at their phones, looking up…. all during the eclipse window. An interesting day.

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